My life is a volleyball.

Good things. 1. My girls set up the ball today at least half a dozen times during their scrimmage. It was beautiful. If you know about volleyball - this is the next step to being a good team. 2. The head coach said that the activities director said that he wants to send us (the three vball coaches) to a coaching clinic in the spring. This means that I will be coaching again. Which made me extremely happy because I figured it was a one time deal.

I wanted to add a pic of my girls, but I will wait until I have some action ones - I think you'd enjoy them more. Unfortunately, I can't seem to coach and take pics....but I'll make it happen.

My first coaching experience.

If this reads like an email - it's because it is. I was writing my friend in Iraq about it and decided it was exactly what I would want to put in my blog, so I just copy and pasted to save time.

Well. I coached my first real game. Even though we didn't have real refs. But I count it as a 'real' game because we played against a team from another district.

My girls we're real fired up for the first game. They were so nervous. A lot of parents showed up - many more than I thought would. That was awesome. We played three games - lost all three. But we were playing Belton - which is in NO WAY urban. They are like a edge of town farm team. Farm girls. Kids that have been playing sports all their life. So here's our final scores. We are the first score: Game 1: 21-25, Game 2: 8-25, Game 3: 21-25

They lost their umph during the second game. But that's okay. They played well the first and third. They were even ahead at one time during the third game.

The only things that bothered me a little was that the main coach bit my head off about some of my paperwork. Maybe she had a bad day or something. I just let it go. No need to bite my head off during my first actual game EVER though.

Overall, it was really fun and the girls had a good time and got some good playing time, which is all I cared about.

Survey says...

Something different because I didn't want to write anything for fear of constant complaining.


1. I love…being at home

2. Right now I want…something else for lunch, or money to get something else for lunch

3. I feel like…I am annoyed.

4. I hate it when…friends talk about you behind your back.

5. I fear…the apocolypse.

6. I’m lonely without…my dog.

7. I need…to clean my house.

8. Today I…got an email from A.

9. Tomorrow I’m…coaching my team during a real game.

10. I just…ate some bland chicken.

11. I want to meet…Chuck Norris.

12. I’m hungry for…French Fries.

13. I love it when…I read a good book and pass it on to someone that loves it too.

14. I’m afraid of…idle time.

15. I’m listening to…air conditioning or heat blowing.

16. I’m wearing…black pants, fun shirt, black sweater

17. I wish I was in…pajamas.

18. I’m craving…fast food.

19. I want to get…groceries

20. I can…think for myself.

21. I can’t…stand some people right now.

22. I have…rashes.

23. I haven’t…done the dishes.

24. I’m nervous to…play a concert.

25. I think…good friends should confront you, not discuss you to other friends.

28. I’m happy when…I'm at home or doing what I want.

29. I’m sad when…

30. I like eating…yes, I do.

31. I love watching…monday night tv

32. I love listening to…music

34. I hate waking up to…an alarm

35. I can see…clearly with my glasses or contact

36. I’m glad that…Shannon is getting married

37. I’m disappointed that…people can't just ask me what's up.

38. I look like…me

39. I wish I looked like…put together, good hair, make-up and a nice outfit. And maybe about 50 pounds less.

happy whiney needy people.

Usually this is just the clients at the salon that I work at part-time. But today it is also my co-workers. They can't seem to do anything for themselves. "Would you get my some ice in a big glass?" "Would you hand me my purse?" Just a few of the directives I've been given today by people who just can't seem to walk the three extra steps it takes to get it themselves. I was in a nice mood earlier - not so much now. I'm supposed to be going to the plaza art festival tonight, but that won't happen if I'm in a piss poor mood. I made that mistake last night and Brian suffered for it. Sorry, Brian! It doesn't help that I'm getting hungry and did not bring any snacks with me today. Still have about 2 hours left and it looks like the stylists are going to run over time...so I'm probably stuck here til 6:30ish. Ugh. Sorry about my complaining. It's really okay - I think I'm just hungry.

C is for....

Congratulations to my C team for winning tonight against the B team. We definitely have better serves than they do. Our defense is lacking (or non-existent) but we still won. We have an actual game next Wednesday against Belton. That will be the true test.

I hope everyone has a good Friday and weekend. I am going to be productive this weekend and get some house stuff complete (like mow the lawn, clean up, vaccuum..etc). Sounds like fun huh?! I do have two new books to read, that is kinda exciting - but I need to get some cleaning done first.

Fall is here - The Plaza art fair is this weekend. I think I'm going to go to Ren fest next weekend, and then there is an apple festival in Weston and an Irish fest in Weston as well as my usual trip to get cider from Dunn's and pumpkins from Johnson's farms. Might do those next weekend too. (I worry about Dunn's running out of cider...and it's so good!) So many fun things in KC in the fall. I love it.

warning.

3 jobs are hard to balance. They keep running into each other. Volley ball games are getting scheduled on the nights I work at the salon. I totally forgot to take off the day my mom and I go see Tina. Ridiculous. I am sure I can make it all work, I know I will. It's just real frustrating. And so I am going to bed at 8:35pm. Because, well, I can and I'm tired and I worked 13 hours today with no nourishment (except for peanuts and m&m's).

misc...

Life.

My plate is FULL these days. But I think it's the universe working with me to help push me to change my life as I'd like to. My weeks are full of games, work, band. I have something everday of the week. And no more time to commit to anything or anyone else. Here's an example of a week for me, just so we can have a more educated discussion:

Sunday - Northwinds 4:30-8:30 (with traveling times...)
Monday - Vball game, be home around 7:30
Tuesday - Platte City Community Band - 6-10 (with traveling times)
Wednesday - Work at the salon (5-8)
Thursday - Vball game
Friday....practice til 4 but then I'm done...
Saturday - usually work at salon


I'm not looking for a pity party here - I chose this. I just want everyone to understand a full plate for me. This is a full plate for me. I was going to quit the Northwinds but I realized that there is a concert in a about three weeks, so it will have to be after that. I think once I get my Sunday's back, I'll feel much calmer and more at east with the life.

So the universe has given me opportunities that take up my time and do not allow me to really have the time to go out or be frivilous. By Friday, I'm exhausted. I went out last friday, but while I made the choice to stay out...I really wish I had just gone home. I will remember that next time. My plate will become much cleaner when vball season is over, which isn't far off - middle of October. But then I plan to occupy myself with house work, there is a lot that needs to be completed before this winter.

I have felt the need to pull away from the masses and just control everything that is going on with me. Making sure every decision I make is the one I really want. This is hard practice for me, because usually I make the decisions that make everyone else happy or content. I am no longer focusing on that or too worried about their reactions to my decisions...which causes the pulling away.

I have no idea where I'm going with all this, just my thoughts and observations lately.

On other hands...
I heard from my friend that headed out to war on 9/11. She made it to the middle east, but not quite to her destination yet. It was comforting to get that email though.

My friend Shannon, came down this weekend to wedding dress shop and found a gorgeous dress. It's the perfect one (of course). It was really nice to be surrounded by good friends for almost an entire day. Shannon's wedding is on my birthday (March 21) this year and yes, I will be in it. That's a whole other blog on it's own and I will be writing it probably within the week. I have to do some research before I get it all put together.

Work is work. I should be writing lesson plans right now. But I don't want to. There's about a million other things I should do. But I don't want to. However, I will...maybe tomorrow, maybe later today.

I'm definitely going to be a vampire for halloween.

My washer is leaking more now than before. I think I didn't get the piece put back on right. It's really frustrating to not have the washer working correctly.

And I'm off to a meeting that will begin my week. There is no more pretending that I can just sit here and type my thoughts. Friday will come fast - I'm sure. I can't wait.

Have a great week!

The Twilight Saga...

My obsession is finally over. I have within a week, read all 4 of the books from the Twilight Saga. It was sheer obsession that kept me up way past my bed time and at home on a Saturday night. The TV wasn't turned on, nor the radio humming (I could have no distractions).
I wouldn't say that I read these books with such fierceness because they were so good....it was really more of an obsession. The chase to get to the end. They were appealling because the content was about relationships, society, and the quest to find your soulmate and then keep them. It was about survival. It was about the acceptance of all people, even mythological, living and surviving together.
I could cry now, mostly because I'm tired, but the books were really beautiful. They held my interest and still do. I'm sure I will be thinking about them for at least another week. Mostly, I will probably be thinking about how much calmer and slower my life would be if I was a vampire. I would have all sorts of time. I wouldn't have to feel so rushed or crowded with work/life.
They were totally worth all the sleeping time I lost this last week. I wish I would have read them this summer, I could have just spent a few days reading and read them all in one setting. Yes, they were that much of an obsession.

i heart edward.

Yes, I'm totally sucked in. I've read the first two books just this week. And will be reading the next two probably this weekend. They are fast, fun, and keep you wanting more.

On another (less worried) note...

I have my first volleyball game tonight as a coach. My girls are not playing, but I believe we will actually get to play a week from tonight. This is quite all right with me because I'm still pretty unsure of what all I have to do in a game. It will be good for all of us to watch and learn. I will say that my girls are getting really good, better than some of the B team girls. If we were really in it for the win, it would probably be smart to check all the girls out again in a week or two after a few games and rearrange the teams. But it's middle school. It's not really about the win. Although a win is nice. I don't anticipate one on our part tonight, we're going up against the hardest team in our conference. Good luck to our Lady Jackets! Go team!

9/11

Ironically enough, one of the most amazing women that I know is on her way to the middle east today to 'do her part'. It's too emotional a subject to really sit and write about here at work, but please keep her in your thoughts today. Pray for her the next 5 months. I will write more later, maybe even include some pictures. I really just wanted to put this out there because it seems to flood my emotions and my mind. The irony is just a little too much.

Roller coasters and other thrills

I was thinking about this while on my way home from band (Platte County Community Band) tonight. I attract relationships that are in and out/up and down like roller coasters. People feel free to come and go in my life as they please. I don't by any means mean this in a negative sense - people do what people do. But it's funny how people can come into my life and be there for a good measure and be there everyday and then somehow disappear for a while and then come back and then leave again. I don't really have a problem with this at all. It is a little disconcerting at times and with different people. I am thinking of one friend in particular (now you all are going to think it's you - it's not...I don't even think they read my blog anymore unless I tell them to). It's disconcerting with them. I want them to be there, everyday - and right now I just don't think it's possible for them or it's just too hard to keep up the communication. But while I was thinking of it, it reminded me of a roller coaster. And as I got to thinking about many of the other relationships in my life that have been meaningful, many are similar. I think I probably attract this sort of thing and then when it's time to move on - I've learned (the hard way) that you just gotta move on and appreciate what you had at the time and the new and different relationship you'll have in the future.

On a whole other tangent: I love coaching. It really gets me going. I'm very glad to have this experience. Now I feel like I need to probably go out and play/learn a sport for real. Actually know the rules and everything so I can be a better coach in the future. I don't even know what sport I would most enjoy or want to learn everything about. I'm so glad to be excited about something that is attached to my job (at least in the same building and kids that I see in the hallway on a daily basis).

i can't believe it's september.

Check this out. If you're in the KC area - maybe you want to go. Only $10 in advance (you can buy tickets online here. I will be there - come hang out with me and hear some of KC's best live music.