Summer??

I'm having trouble finding summer. This one has been full of work and cleaning and lots of trying to have fun (which has included spending more money than should be).  I wanted to feel release from the school year and work on building healthy habits.   I wanted to develop a guide for teaching next year so I had an idea of what I was doing.  I'm starting week 3 of 9 and nothing.  I've had moments of a few of these things.  But basically I find myself tired and sad.  I'm working through the motions, I think hoping that at some point it will be more than just motions.   I have the future, I won't have to teach summer school after this year.  I'll be getting married and going on a relaxing honeymoon.  It will all come together.  So I have hopeful thoughts.  I just wish I felt better now.  It's pretty crummy to be in a rut during the only semi-free time we have during a year.  It too will pass but until it does think happy thoughts for me :).