procrastination

I don't want to pack for Florida - heading to the Everglades in the morning.  It's tedious and I'm afraid that I'm not going to pack the right stuff.  I keep wanting other things - but don't have the money really to go get them.  Oh well...so I got on blogger, which I hardly ever do anymore and checked out Kodi's blog.  This was her last entry - I thought I'd steal it and do it instead of packing.

I was...wondering today what obstacle is really keeping me from being healthy and losing the weight I want to lose.  I can't figure out the barrier.  I don't know what keeps me from just getting up and going on a walk.  Or joining a gym.  Or working out on the Wii.  Maybe it's fear, or feeling the lack of time, or not wanting to make it a priority.  It might be overwhelming.  I just know I have to get past it and get on it.  The time is now, I KNOW it.  I know it in my body, my soul, my mind. 

I am...heading to the Everglades tomorrow.  So excited for this trip, and so nervous.  We are being filmed by a film crew for a PBS special or something.  I don't know if I could be an actor.  So much pressure.  I have just been talking to myself saying that it doesn't matter what I look like, or how many pounds the camera adds, I need to go and have the experience.  That's what I'm there for.

I think...this will take more time than I was prepared for.  I have a lot of things to accomplish and I'm moving at a snails pace. 

I wonder...what kind of animals we will be able to see on the trip.  I also wonder what my boyfriend is doing in Illinois.  I miss him.

I wish...for nothing.  Everything eventually falls in place. 

I save...beer bottles...actually, John saves beer bottles.  I will have to figure something out with them, I think there will be a lot around the house.

I always...take a time out.  Everyday.  I have several time outs - resting times.  Usually right after school.  They are great moments in my day.  I meditate, read facebook, look at my email - it's just recharging. 

I can't imagine...still teaching special education.  My life has changed so much since I made the move to regular ed.  All for the happier.  Things fall into place.

I believe...in sunsets, waking up when the sun does, riding my bike on cold spring mornings, sweating til I stink, enjoying my friends and family, letting my feelings out, saying yes, seeing good in people, and I believe in living life.

I promise...to get it all packed up and ready to go before I get to bed tonight.

I love...my family (which includes my chosen family) because they believe, love and support me.  I'm very blessed.  I definitely don't take my gift for granted, even if I may not show it all the time.